I have had a lot of nostalgic, reflective moments in the last couple weeks where I look at Annabelle and think of how our time together, being just the three of us is winding down...I get all teared up the other day thinking of it...it was a sweet, sweet sort of sadness and realization of how fast time has gone by since the day she was born. She caught me smiling at her in the rear view mirror, through my tears and responded with this precious little question " Mommy, are you mine?" After which I really proceeded to lose it and bawled so hard I could hardly see to drive. Which then turned into an explanation of why mommies sometimes cry when were happy...
So now I am just going to jot down a series of things she's said and done in the last few weeks that I have particularly cherished...
Her quoting from Beatrix Potter's the Tale of Peter Rabbit...she totally mumbles but it's still so, so cute!
Her refusing to let us call her a " little girl." Oh it's so not allowed. She is most adamantly, beyond the shadow of all doubt, a "big girl." Or as she heart-meltingly tells David and I, she's...
" a little bit big."
Or in bed at night when she wants an extra snuggle, and she asks..." mommy can you help me hold my hand?"
Or the other day when she didn't want to stay in her room for quiet time....
Annabelle: " but mommy I am scared of my room"
Mommy: " why?"
Annabelle: " because it's messy"
This song that we've been loving...all three of us sing it at the top of our lungs together in the car...it's Anniebelle's favorite and oh so appropriate for us right now.
Her telling my dear friend the other night, when they were here as she beamed at her from ear to ear " this is how a smile goes."
Or her lifting up my shirt to kiss Jack good night and exclaiming horrified..." Oh no Mommy Jack put " scratches" on you, " referring to my stretch marks. Then yesterday she came to me with two cookie monster band aides which of course had go on my "scratches."
And so many, many other dear and funny little things every day, that just give my heart a squeeze. I hope to keep adding to this list for the rest of our pre-Jack days...but goodness are we ever getting ready/excited for him to show up and rock our world for the better.
( the rose is from a very special man in Annabelle's life who's name is Mike, and who is the very lucky fiance of one of my dearest ever since childhood friends )